What Do You Want To Be?

hi, my name is dika,, my friends used to call me 'dick' or 'dickhead', cuz i got funny name similar to that 'thing',, beside, before i got bald head and curvy shape of head with chubby cheek, made me much more similar to it,, but thats okay, im proud of my name,, rahadiandhika bagus widiandaru,, 'my son is a man who is a grace from God, we hope his life is righteous from today until later',,

born 18 years ago at 3 pm in calm, sunny afternoon,, it was a small hospital where i was born,, witnessed by 2 nurse and 1 doctor, without my dad,, yea, my mom said my dad was out in home for some reason, till now i got no clear reason behind it, i was born by caesar,, pretty much ticklish though,, cuz i am my mother's first born son,, it should be no caesar at all,, i have no idea about the pain,, as far as i know, caesar left no pain, cuz it was anesthized,, my position was not okay for normal birth,, so they decided to pull me out with caesar,, see, even when i was born i made trouble with them,, teehee,,

i didnt remember anything when those time passes,, all i can remember was a lil bit dark room and no sound at all,, i was taken by the nurse to a place where i got myself cleaned,, it was the first time i memorized what people called this world,, i still can remember the air, the warm water and the situation,, very calm,, and also, that hospital got a lot of trees which make the situation even more cool,, that is, 13 january 1989,, the day i was born,,

my mom and dad said i was so active when i was baby,, when i got my first baby-walker, i ran like hell,, go-that-way-and-this-way with full of speed,, just like running,, even when i am in bathroom,, i was still very excited with my new abilities,, that is 'walking',, yea,, i was one and couple of months,, and it came to disaster when i dropped myself to the ground,, i still can't remember how it felt but i bet it was so hurt,, no wonder why cuz i was never dropped myself before, moreover i was baby when that time,, my mom said i fell down the first time bathroom floor,, i escaped from my mom's guidance and ran into the bathroom,, it was slimy and i couldnt control myself,, and i fell down,, i was crying,, loud and clear,, maybe i was hoping someone to help me and taken care of me in that moment, that's why im crying,, but it wasnt,, yea of course i got myself risen up by my father but after that my father scold me,, and he spanked my butt,, it was hurt,, but even more hurt when my father was mad at me,, i was a baby but i could feel the disappoinment of my father,, i could feel the worries of my father,, i could feel my father's.. love,, in fact i realized just now that it was my first lesson. my first lesson of bravery, carefulness and obedience,, i didnt realize it until i grown up,, i thought my father was not love me, but that moment really help me not to be ordinary man,, my first lesson as a child,,

when i saw my baby photos, i realize that i love to laugh when i was baby,, 80% of it shown when i was laughin, or at least, smile,, i was sooo cute,, not meant to be narcist but its true,, everybody loved me because of my attitude,, chubby face, nice wavy hair and beautiful eyes,, my maid (when she was still alive) told me that i am the most handsome prince she ever saw,, hehe,, lil bit nice!

but actually its not,, when i was in kindegarten i was so coward,, i cried a lot,, when i didnt picked up in the game i went backside and cried,, when i was hitted by another child i cried again,, even i had no guts to enter the class without my mom,,

it was my first day in the kindegarten,, my first school,, my first socialization with people,, i was so coward like i told u,, i thought my mom would leave me alone with these people and never returned back,, she left me in the class with all of other unknown i had never known before,, i cried,,

after two hours spent in that hell i went out to look back after my mom,, and she was there,, watching me without moving outside on the window,, i was soo happy,, another lesson from my mother that nobody they loved will ever leave me,, i didnt realize it that time but i realized it now that they love me so much but they have funny way to show it,, at least funny enough for 3 years old child to realize,, hahha,,

(to be continued sampe saya mood lg bwt nglanjutinny :p)