This is who I am
and this is what I like
GC, Sum and Blink and Mxpx rocking my room
if your looking for me
I'll be at the show
I could never find a better place to go
Until the day I die I promise I won't change
so you better give up
I don't wanna be told to grow up
and I don't wanna change
I just wanna have fun
I don't wanna be told to grow up
and I don't wanna change
so you better give up
cause I'm not gonna change
I don't wanna grow up
I like to stay up late
spend hours on the phone
hanging out with all my friends
and never being at home
I'm impolite and I make fun of everyone
I'm immature but I will stay this way forever
Until the day I die I promise I won't change
so you better give up
I don't wanna be told to grow up
and I don't wanna change
I just wanna have fun
I don't wanna be told to grow up
and I don't wanna change
so you better give up
cause I'm not gonna change
I don't wanna grow up
I don't wanna be told to grow up (grow up, grow up)
I don't wanna be told to grow up (grow up, grow up)
I don't wanna be told to grow up
and I don't wanna change
I just wanna have fun
I don't wanna be told to grow up
and I don't wanna change
so you better give up
I don't wanna be told to grow up
and I don't wanna change
I just wanna have fun
I don't wanna be told to grow up
And I don't want to change
So you better give up
No I don't want to change
So you better give up
Cause I'm not gonna change
I don't wanna grow up!
ps. : Listen, mom, dad, no matter what you told me about my attitude and my future... I JUST DON'T WANNA GROW UP!!! Being mature is just as sucks as shitty llama's ass does... So if you guys accidentally read this, (hopefully not... :-), PLEASE STOP TALKIN' ABOUT SOMETHING THAT DIDN'T EVEN CAME TO MY HEAD!!! Right now I'm as happy as Jesus did... Yeaaahhh... JESUS OF SUBURBIA RAWKK!!!
Sorry if y'all have to read this, pal. As you know, these day are just like hell to me. There's no day without some lecture from my dad. And guess what, it really-really pisses me off!!!
Thursday, December 29, 2005
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
...Wasting My Time...
I'm wasting time thinking about a girl
And stealing her away from her world
She and I would run away
I think of all the things that I'd say
We'd talk about important things
And I picture it in my dreams
She'd teach me about modern art
And I'd show her it's okay to fart and
Maybe I'd impress her
By being in a band and
Maybe if I act real tough
She'd let me hold her hand and
Maybe I'll win her heart
By writing this song about her
Sometimes I sit at home and
Wonder if she's sitting at home
Thinking of me and wondering if I'm
Sitting at home, thinking about her
Or am I just wasting my time
Remembering how she laughed at Kinko's
When I made fun of that guy
Remembering the look she gave me
When I told her that I used to fry
I really want to ask her out
But my ego could never take it
And even if I got the balls
You know that the Cougar would never make it
And maybe I'd impress her
By being in a band and
Maybe if I act real tough
She'd let me hold her hand and
Maybe I'll win her heart
By writing this song about her
Sometimes I sit at home and
Wonder if she's sitting at home
Thinking of me and wondering if I'm
Sitting at home, thinking about her
Or am I just wasting my time
Am I just wasting my time?
Am I just wasting my time?
Am I just wasting my time?
Wasting my time thinking about a girl
n.b. : You're right, dude... Am I just wasting my time thinking her? Aaahhh... Someday I'll find out...
And stealing her away from her world
She and I would run away
I think of all the things that I'd say
We'd talk about important things
And I picture it in my dreams
She'd teach me about modern art
And I'd show her it's okay to fart and
Maybe I'd impress her
By being in a band and
Maybe if I act real tough
She'd let me hold her hand and
Maybe I'll win her heart
By writing this song about her
Sometimes I sit at home and
Wonder if she's sitting at home
Thinking of me and wondering if I'm
Sitting at home, thinking about her
Or am I just wasting my time
Remembering how she laughed at Kinko's
When I made fun of that guy
Remembering the look she gave me
When I told her that I used to fry
I really want to ask her out
But my ego could never take it
And even if I got the balls
You know that the Cougar would never make it
And maybe I'd impress her
By being in a band and
Maybe if I act real tough
She'd let me hold her hand and
Maybe I'll win her heart
By writing this song about her
Sometimes I sit at home and
Wonder if she's sitting at home
Thinking of me and wondering if I'm
Sitting at home, thinking about her
Or am I just wasting my time
Am I just wasting my time?
Am I just wasting my time?
Am I just wasting my time?
Wasting my time thinking about a girl
n.b. : You're right, dude... Am I just wasting my time thinking her? Aaahhh... Someday I'll find out...
!!!Give Me One Good -fucking- Reason!!!
Mom and dad they quite don't understand it
All the kids they laugh as if they planned it
Why do girls wanna pierce their nose
And walk around in torn pantyhose
I like the ones who say they listen to the punk rock
I like the kids who fight against how they were brought up
They hate the trends and think it's fucked to care
It's cool when this piss people off with what they wear
So give me one good reason
Why we need to be like them
Kids will have fun and offend
They don't want to and don't fit in
Hate the jocks, the preps, the hippie fucking scum bags
Heavy metalers with their awful pussy hair bands
Counting seconds until we can get away
Ditching school almost every single day
So give me one good reason
Why we need to be like them
Kids will have fun and offend
They don't want to and don't fit in
So give me one good reason
Why we need to be like them
Kids will have fun and offend
They don't want to and don't fit in
ps. : Uuuhh... Mom... Dad... Please give me one good reason why I need to be just like you wanted...?
All the kids they laugh as if they planned it
Why do girls wanna pierce their nose
And walk around in torn pantyhose
I like the ones who say they listen to the punk rock
I like the kids who fight against how they were brought up
They hate the trends and think it's fucked to care
It's cool when this piss people off with what they wear
So give me one good reason
Why we need to be like them
Kids will have fun and offend
They don't want to and don't fit in
Hate the jocks, the preps, the hippie fucking scum bags
Heavy metalers with their awful pussy hair bands
Counting seconds until we can get away
Ditching school almost every single day
So give me one good reason
Why we need to be like them
Kids will have fun and offend
They don't want to and don't fit in
So give me one good reason
Why we need to be like them
Kids will have fun and offend
They don't want to and don't fit in
ps. : Uuuhh... Mom... Dad... Please give me one good reason why I need to be just like you wanted...?
Sunday, December 25, 2005
...Christmas By The Phone...
Another year, Another tree
But this year you won't be with me
And it don't, feel much like christmas
We used to watch the same old shows
Sing Social D on the radio
But it don't, feel much like christmas
This used to be, my favourite holiday
My Christmas Eve was filled with dreams
But you chased them all away
[Chorus] Why did you leave me for Christmas?
You left me lonely its true,
Could you have waited till New Years?
At least the year would be through...
And now the misletoe's hanging
For no reason at all
And all the presents are still wrapped
But you don't even call
I took a walk to where we go
There were lights and there was snow
But it don't feel, much like christmas
And people ask me how you've been
I fake a smile and say ok,
But i don't feel, much like christmas
You used to be, my favourite holiday
But now you're gone, i'm all alone
And all that I can say
[Chorus]
Why did you leave me for Christmas?
You left me lonely its true,
Could you have waited till New Years?
At least the year would be through...
And now the misletoe's hanging
For no reason at all
And all the presents are still wrapped
But you don't even call
Waiting here alone Christmas by the phone
Waiting here alone Spending Christmas by the phone...
ps. : Happy Christmas... :-)
But this year you won't be with me
And it don't, feel much like christmas
We used to watch the same old shows
Sing Social D on the radio
But it don't, feel much like christmas
This used to be, my favourite holiday
My Christmas Eve was filled with dreams
But you chased them all away
[Chorus] Why did you leave me for Christmas?
You left me lonely its true,
Could you have waited till New Years?
At least the year would be through...
And now the misletoe's hanging
For no reason at all
And all the presents are still wrapped
But you don't even call
I took a walk to where we go
There were lights and there was snow
But it don't feel, much like christmas
And people ask me how you've been
I fake a smile and say ok,
But i don't feel, much like christmas
You used to be, my favourite holiday
But now you're gone, i'm all alone
And all that I can say
[Chorus]
Why did you leave me for Christmas?
You left me lonely its true,
Could you have waited till New Years?
At least the year would be through...
And now the misletoe's hanging
For no reason at all
And all the presents are still wrapped
But you don't even call
Waiting here alone Christmas by the phone
Waiting here alone Spending Christmas by the phone...
ps. : Happy Christmas... :-)
Friday, December 23, 2005
...Imagine This...
You woke up on 6.00 am just to print the stuff that you'd about to gave it to somebody that you cared so much, and you realized that your ink was empty. So you drove your convertibles to the nearest internet-cafe and wtf, their printer is all runned down. You came to your home with dissapointment. You called your friends on 7.00 pm and forced him to print your stuff. You don't give a damn even he yelled on you. You wrapped the gift and get ready to made her happy. And you called her just to ask when was she gonna leave... And she said, 'Tomorrow, dude!'... Uuuuhhh.... Okay, then...
Your body was soooo.... damn tired and you tried to get some sleep. Before you laid down your head onto the pillow, your father called you. He wanna say something about your future and tried to gave you some lecture... As your head gets cluttered inside, you try to stay awake. But, you're way too tired and tried to close your eyes for just a second. Your father knew this and you were grounded. Ummmhhh... No probz... It was 9.00 am.
After breakfast on 10.00 am, you just want to go to bed...
You woken up on 2.00 am because of your friends called you. You received him and had a chat for about 1/2 hour. After that, you listened to Yellowcard just to relax for a while...
On the 5.00 am, she sms-ed you. You sms-ed her back. It was just a simple question and obviously, it needs simple answer too... But you answered it with another dumb answer. No wonder if you were fucked up.
Ahhhh... What did you say... Now you feel nothing... Just a numb thing on your heart... You just want to rewind those day and fix everything up... But you never regret those day...
Aaahhhh... Damn, GOD... YOU always have your masterplan. Hope it doesn't ruin you off...
Your body was soooo.... damn tired and you tried to get some sleep. Before you laid down your head onto the pillow, your father called you. He wanna say something about your future and tried to gave you some lecture... As your head gets cluttered inside, you try to stay awake. But, you're way too tired and tried to close your eyes for just a second. Your father knew this and you were grounded. Ummmhhh... No probz... It was 9.00 am.
After breakfast on 10.00 am, you just want to go to bed...
You woken up on 2.00 am because of your friends called you. You received him and had a chat for about 1/2 hour. After that, you listened to Yellowcard just to relax for a while...
On the 5.00 am, she sms-ed you. You sms-ed her back. It was just a simple question and obviously, it needs simple answer too... But you answered it with another dumb answer. No wonder if you were fucked up.
Ahhhh... What did you say... Now you feel nothing... Just a numb thing on your heart... You just want to rewind those day and fix everything up... But you never regret those day...
Aaahhhh... Damn, GOD... YOU always have your masterplan. Hope it doesn't ruin you off...
Thursday, December 22, 2005
!!!Benji Article in Kerrang!!!
because life is loud... this is a gift from me to y'all, my gcww boardies this issue is particularly great cuz it's reflecting on 2005 and has sooo many great idols in great bands of '05: foo fighters, angels and airwaves, blink 182, my chemical romance, simple plan, fall out boy, avenged sevenfold, green day, trivium, bullet for my valentine, funeral for a friend, lostprophets, HIM, slipknot...and good charlotte of course
so on to the article; it's hot stuff and has a rather handsome pic of benjaboo, a little old (the good days of his labret and wearing a bandana under his cap) but it's mighty HOT. here's the juiciness:
How was 2005 for you?
"It was a great year. We had some challenges, like changing our drummer, but we've come through it."
Was that a bad moment?
"Losing Chris [Wilson,ex-drummer] was very bad. We're still friends and we still talk now and then but his decision that he wasn't able to play with us and that he wanted to concentrate on himself was very bad to deal with. But Dean [Butterworth-new drummer] has been brilliant."
What about the high points?
"The entire rest of the year was a high point! Our third album came out and, just to have it do as well as it did, was amazing. It was a change for us and it means we've got a good platform to go and make another record. We also toured the world and the reaction from everyone was humbling because all our fans treated us really well. What was amazing was that, even when we were playing with bands like System of a Down, Marilyn Manson and Green Day, their fans treated us really well too."
Do you feel like you've grown up?
"We definitely went through a growing period on 'The Young and the Hopeless' and there were some people that were very unsure of us, who really didn't want to get into the Good Charlotte thing. But, on this record, it feels like we've won-we came through the difficult stage victorious. You critics haven't always been the easiest on us and a lot of people were waiting to see if we were the real thing or not."
You've got quite a car collection. Any new ones?
"Probably the most extravagant thing I bought this year was a Harley. I also got a 1964 Chevy Impala, too. I've been ragging that around a lot. When I'm home, I definitely take full advantage of the things that I've bought. I'm living the dream!"
You bought your brother Joel a diamond watch for Christmas last year. How are you going to top that?
"I was wondering what to do this year. I might go back to basics. Christmas should be about family, so maybe I'll just write him a really heartfelt card."
If he gets you something really expensive, do you think he'll be p!ssed off with just a card?
"No, Joel's cool. That stuff really doesn't matter to him. Although, if he buys me a Ferrari, I'd better come up with a pretty amazing birthday present for him!"
Favourite place you played this year?
"Bogota, Columbia. In America, Columbia has this really bad reputation. The government convinced us not to go and play in Indonesia because they said it wasn't a safe place. We regretted not going. We weren't going to make the same mistake with Columbia and it was amazing down there.The show was insane and the people were really nice."
You didn't get chased through the city by bandits, then...
"Not at all! Hanging out in Bogota was so cool-I'm going back there on vacation. They told us we were going to get kidnapped but we didn't see any of that."
What was your worst experience?
"We did a lot of charity stuff for the Make-A-Wish Foundation. That was very hard emotionally because some of those kids were in a really bad way. Some of them didn't make it through the year. It's hard to work out why these kids didn't get to experience all the things that everyone else gets. There's no real answer to it and that's a hard thing to learn."
ps. : notice what Benji feels about the concert cancellation in Indonesia! ;-)
so on to the article; it's hot stuff and has a rather handsome pic of benjaboo, a little old (the good days of his labret and wearing a bandana under his cap) but it's mighty HOT. here's the juiciness:
How was 2005 for you?
"It was a great year. We had some challenges, like changing our drummer, but we've come through it."
Was that a bad moment?
"Losing Chris [Wilson,ex-drummer] was very bad. We're still friends and we still talk now and then but his decision that he wasn't able to play with us and that he wanted to concentrate on himself was very bad to deal with. But Dean [Butterworth-new drummer] has been brilliant."
What about the high points?
"The entire rest of the year was a high point! Our third album came out and, just to have it do as well as it did, was amazing. It was a change for us and it means we've got a good platform to go and make another record. We also toured the world and the reaction from everyone was humbling because all our fans treated us really well. What was amazing was that, even when we were playing with bands like System of a Down, Marilyn Manson and Green Day, their fans treated us really well too."
Do you feel like you've grown up?
"We definitely went through a growing period on 'The Young and the Hopeless' and there were some people that were very unsure of us, who really didn't want to get into the Good Charlotte thing. But, on this record, it feels like we've won-we came through the difficult stage victorious. You critics haven't always been the easiest on us and a lot of people were waiting to see if we were the real thing or not."
You've got quite a car collection. Any new ones?
"Probably the most extravagant thing I bought this year was a Harley. I also got a 1964 Chevy Impala, too. I've been ragging that around a lot. When I'm home, I definitely take full advantage of the things that I've bought. I'm living the dream!"
You bought your brother Joel a diamond watch for Christmas last year. How are you going to top that?
"I was wondering what to do this year. I might go back to basics. Christmas should be about family, so maybe I'll just write him a really heartfelt card."
If he gets you something really expensive, do you think he'll be p!ssed off with just a card?
"No, Joel's cool. That stuff really doesn't matter to him. Although, if he buys me a Ferrari, I'd better come up with a pretty amazing birthday present for him!"
Favourite place you played this year?
"Bogota, Columbia. In America, Columbia has this really bad reputation. The government convinced us not to go and play in Indonesia because they said it wasn't a safe place. We regretted not going. We weren't going to make the same mistake with Columbia and it was amazing down there.The show was insane and the people were really nice."
You didn't get chased through the city by bandits, then...
"Not at all! Hanging out in Bogota was so cool-I'm going back there on vacation. They told us we were going to get kidnapped but we didn't see any of that."
What was your worst experience?
"We did a lot of charity stuff for the Make-A-Wish Foundation. That was very hard emotionally because some of those kids were in a really bad way. Some of them didn't make it through the year. It's hard to work out why these kids didn't get to experience all the things that everyone else gets. There's no real answer to it and that's a hard thing to learn."
ps. : notice what Benji feels about the concert cancellation in Indonesia! ;-)
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Tuesday, December 20, 2005
...Not Now...
Come here, please hold my hand for now
Help me, I'm scared please show me how to fight this,
God has a master plan And I guess
I am in his demand
Please save me this time I cannot run
And I'll see you when this is done
And now I have come to realize
That you are the one who's left behind
Please stay until I'm gone
I'm here hold on to me I'm right here
Waiting
I see, a light it feels good
And I'll come back soon just like you would
It's useless, my name has made the list
And I wish, I gave you one last kiss
Please stay until I'm gone
I'm here hold on to me I'm right here
Waiting and take
My one last breath, and don't forget
That I will be right here
Waiting
Please stay until I'm gone
I'm here hold on to me I'm right here
Waiting and take
My one last breath, and don't forget
That I will be right here
Waiting
p.s. : This is the exact words from the moth of Tom DeLonge when he talks about this song:
"the song is going to be about when you die and you just figured out you died and you're standing there looking at your lady, and she's there. And you're trying to say goodbye but it's too late. And you feel and you know she's right there...but she can't see you, and she doesn't know you're there"
Help me, I'm scared please show me how to fight this,
God has a master plan And I guess
I am in his demand
Please save me this time I cannot run
And I'll see you when this is done
And now I have come to realize
That you are the one who's left behind
Please stay until I'm gone
I'm here hold on to me I'm right here
Waiting
I see, a light it feels good
And I'll come back soon just like you would
It's useless, my name has made the list
And I wish, I gave you one last kiss
Please stay until I'm gone
I'm here hold on to me I'm right here
Waiting and take
My one last breath, and don't forget
That I will be right here
Waiting
Please stay until I'm gone
I'm here hold on to me I'm right here
Waiting and take
My one last breath, and don't forget
That I will be right here
Waiting
p.s. : This is the exact words from the moth of Tom DeLonge when he talks about this song:
"the song is going to be about when you die and you just figured out you died and you're standing there looking at your lady, and she's there. And you're trying to say goodbye but it's too late. And you feel and you know she's right there...but she can't see you, and she doesn't know you're there"
Sunday, December 18, 2005
... Tom DeLonge ...
Tom DeLonge... Former guitarist dari Blink 182 adalah salah satu pujaan saya. Dengan segala attitude dia... Segala pakaian, bahkan sepatu dia saya suka. Bagi saya dia mencerminkan karakter saya yang paling dalam.
Tom DeLonge lahir dari keluarga yang cukup berada. Ayahnya maupun ibunya seorang pengusaha. Bisa dikatakan, hidupnya serba tidak berkekurangan.
Tapi walau begitu, Tom adalah seorang anak yang cukup 'bermasalah'. Tom mulai mengenal minuman-minuman keras pada saat dia berusia 15 tahun. Saat itu dia pesta miras dengan teman-temannya pada saat pertandingan rugby di sekolahnya. Dan dia sangat bangga akan hal itu.
Walaupun begitu Tom tidak pernah menyesal akan hal itu. Bahkan, kenakalan dia semakin menjadi. Tom dikenal sebagai anak yang suka sekali mengusili orang tuanya. Pernah, pada saat orang tuanya tidur pada jam 3 pagi, Tom dengan entengnya niup-niup terompet dengan nada yang tidak beraturan. Alhasil, Tom dapet hukuman akan perbuatannya itu. Tapi bukannya menyesal, Tom malah hepi dengan perbuatannya itu. Bahkan, Tom bilang gini -> "It was my funniest moment I've ever had!" Waaawww...
Tom pertama kali mengetahui punk dari temannya yang notabene merupakan punkers asli. Tom mulai sadar akan keasikkan dari musik punk dan diapun mulai belajar gitar. Walau dia kelihatannya tidak mempunyai talenta di bidang musik, dia lempeng-lempeng aja maen gitar. Gitar yang pertama kali dia punya adalah gitar bekas kepunyaan orang yang sudah ngga kepake. Tapi Tom bangga akan hal tersebut. Dia belajar otodidak sampai dia bisa menguasai dunia sampai sekarang ini.
Walau kelihatannya begitu nakal, Toms sebenarnya percaya dengan Alien. Bahkan, dia berpikir dia pernah diculik Alien dan diubah secara mentalitas. Saking percayanya, kalau kamu suatu saat berbicara dengan Tom, dan kamu kehabisan bahan pembicaraan, bicaralah masalah Alien Abduction. Percaya deh, 3 jam kamu bakalan dengerin ceramah dia tentang hal-hal yang bersifat Outer Space! Yah, itulah Tom.
Tapi, jangan salah, walau dia ngaku-ngaku sebagai penggila musik punk, dia adalah salah satu dari anak emo juga! Coba liat de lirik2 yang pernah dia ciptain... Pasti kalo ga bercerita tentang cewe, pasti tentang putus harapan dan kesedihan... (Coba dengerin I Feel So - nya Boxcar Racer...) Hmmmm... Kayaknya gw banget niiyyy... LOL...
Dari semua itu, saya sadar kalau saya mirip sekali dengan yang namanya Tom Delonge. Mulai dari sikap dia... Cara dia berpakaian... Sampai kepada cara berpikir dia. Saya pikir, 'wah, cowo ini gw banget tuch!'.... Yaaayyyyy... Finally I've found my own saviour!! Huehuehueheuheheh...
Kalau anda semua ingin tahu tentang saya yang sebenarnya, baca fakta-fakta tentang saya dibawah ini ->
1. Percaya dengan Alien!
2. Gak punya talenta di bidang musik.
3. Suka banget ma yang namanya musik punk ato emo.
4. Suka ngejailin orang.
5. Suka banget sama yang namanya desperate feeling.
6. Suka tattoo sama piercing... (Cuman blon kesampaian... Terutama tattoo... )
7. Ga suka dicuekin.
8. Humoris.
9. Narsis. (Dalam artian nganggep gw yang paling keren dan paling kewl... Uuuuhhh... Yeaaa!!!)
10. Menghargai temen.
11. Apa adanya.
12. Ga suka ma orang yang muna'...
13. Dll....
Waaaaawwww... See, I'm close enough to the real Tom isn't it? Huehuehueheuheuehhh....
n.b. : Tau gak seh, perkawinan Tom ma Jennifer Jenkins dah berlangsung 4 tahun lhooo...! Dan mereka adalah temen 1 skul pas di SMU... :-D
Tom DeLonge lahir dari keluarga yang cukup berada. Ayahnya maupun ibunya seorang pengusaha. Bisa dikatakan, hidupnya serba tidak berkekurangan.
Tapi walau begitu, Tom adalah seorang anak yang cukup 'bermasalah'. Tom mulai mengenal minuman-minuman keras pada saat dia berusia 15 tahun. Saat itu dia pesta miras dengan teman-temannya pada saat pertandingan rugby di sekolahnya. Dan dia sangat bangga akan hal itu.
Walaupun begitu Tom tidak pernah menyesal akan hal itu. Bahkan, kenakalan dia semakin menjadi. Tom dikenal sebagai anak yang suka sekali mengusili orang tuanya. Pernah, pada saat orang tuanya tidur pada jam 3 pagi, Tom dengan entengnya niup-niup terompet dengan nada yang tidak beraturan. Alhasil, Tom dapet hukuman akan perbuatannya itu. Tapi bukannya menyesal, Tom malah hepi dengan perbuatannya itu. Bahkan, Tom bilang gini -> "It was my funniest moment I've ever had!" Waaawww...
Tom pertama kali mengetahui punk dari temannya yang notabene merupakan punkers asli. Tom mulai sadar akan keasikkan dari musik punk dan diapun mulai belajar gitar. Walau dia kelihatannya tidak mempunyai talenta di bidang musik, dia lempeng-lempeng aja maen gitar. Gitar yang pertama kali dia punya adalah gitar bekas kepunyaan orang yang sudah ngga kepake. Tapi Tom bangga akan hal tersebut. Dia belajar otodidak sampai dia bisa menguasai dunia sampai sekarang ini.
Walau kelihatannya begitu nakal, Toms sebenarnya percaya dengan Alien. Bahkan, dia berpikir dia pernah diculik Alien dan diubah secara mentalitas. Saking percayanya, kalau kamu suatu saat berbicara dengan Tom, dan kamu kehabisan bahan pembicaraan, bicaralah masalah Alien Abduction. Percaya deh, 3 jam kamu bakalan dengerin ceramah dia tentang hal-hal yang bersifat Outer Space! Yah, itulah Tom.
Tapi, jangan salah, walau dia ngaku-ngaku sebagai penggila musik punk, dia adalah salah satu dari anak emo juga! Coba liat de lirik2 yang pernah dia ciptain... Pasti kalo ga bercerita tentang cewe, pasti tentang putus harapan dan kesedihan... (Coba dengerin I Feel So - nya Boxcar Racer...) Hmmmm... Kayaknya gw banget niiyyy... LOL...
Dari semua itu, saya sadar kalau saya mirip sekali dengan yang namanya Tom Delonge. Mulai dari sikap dia... Cara dia berpakaian... Sampai kepada cara berpikir dia. Saya pikir, 'wah, cowo ini gw banget tuch!'.... Yaaayyyyy... Finally I've found my own saviour!! Huehuehueheuheheh...
Kalau anda semua ingin tahu tentang saya yang sebenarnya, baca fakta-fakta tentang saya dibawah ini ->
1. Percaya dengan Alien!
2. Gak punya talenta di bidang musik.
3. Suka banget ma yang namanya musik punk ato emo.
4. Suka ngejailin orang.
5. Suka banget sama yang namanya desperate feeling.
6. Suka tattoo sama piercing... (Cuman blon kesampaian... Terutama tattoo... )
7. Ga suka dicuekin.
8. Humoris.
9. Narsis. (Dalam artian nganggep gw yang paling keren dan paling kewl... Uuuuhhh... Yeaaa!!!)
10. Menghargai temen.
11. Apa adanya.
12. Ga suka ma orang yang muna'...
13. Dll....
Waaaaawwww... See, I'm close enough to the real Tom isn't it? Huehuehueheuheuehhh....
n.b. : Tau gak seh, perkawinan Tom ma Jennifer Jenkins dah berlangsung 4 tahun lhooo...! Dan mereka adalah temen 1 skul pas di SMU... :-D
Saturday, December 17, 2005
!!!I Wanna Relationship Like This!!!
Danny and Ally on phone-
Danny: hey, so how was your day?
Ally: it was fine, how was yours?
Danny: it was ok
~akward silence~
Danny: sooooo......
Ally: *giggle* sooooo.....
Danny: you doin anything tomorrow?
Ally: nope, why?
Danny: uhh, umm, maybe, uhh, i dont know, we can, hang out or somethin?
Ally: *blushes* okay, what time?
Danny: *big smile* great! uhh, how about around 6:00 pm or something?
Ally: Alright! I'll meet you over at the park then...
Danny: ok then
Ally: well i gotta go, but i'll see you tomorrow?!
Danny: ok, see u then....
-----next day------>>>
Ally walks over to the park and see's Danny sitting on a bench waiting for her. <<<
Ally: hey, whats up?
Danny: uhh nothin, im happy too see you
Ally: *smiles* me too
Danny: alright, how about we go take a walk
Ally: okay
----------------------------------------------------------------As they walk she grabs a hold of his hand, Danny*smiles* as they walk through the park.
----starts getting dark----
Ally: brrr, its getting a little cold out
Danny: wanna go sit on the grass under that tree?
Ally: sure
Danny and Ally: (takes a seat near a tree while Danny holds Ally in his arms keeping her warm)
Ally: thank you, i feel much better now
Danny: me too
Ally: *giggles* why is that?
Danny: cause im with you
Ally: im happy with you too
Danny: uhh, umm, ...nevermind
Ally: no, what is it, you can tell me
Danny: its just....
Ally: yea???
Danny: i feel different when im with you
Ally: what do you mean?
Danny: i mean, you make me wanna be with you for the rest of my life, ive never had anyone make me feel the way you make me feel...
Ally: *blushes* i feel like that too
Danny: i ... i .. lov.....
Ally: (leans over and kisses him)
-a few moments into kiss-
Danny: uhh *blushes*
Ally: i love you
Danny: i love you too and i always wil
l_Danny holds Ally as they look up at the stars_
Danny and Ally fall asleep under the stars....***************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************10
YEARS LATER
Ally: WORKING AS A MAGAZINE EDITOR, 24 YEARS OLD
Danny: WORKING AS A MEDICAL DOCTOR, 25YEARS OLD
The two dated up until prom night where Danny asked Ally to be his wife.....Ally Roberts is probably one of the happiest womenon earth, Danny is probably one of the luckiest man on earth...
Danny: hey, so how was your day?
Ally: it was fine, how was yours?
Danny: it was ok
~akward silence~
Danny: sooooo......
Ally: *giggle* sooooo.....
Danny: you doin anything tomorrow?
Ally: nope, why?
Danny: uhh, umm, maybe, uhh, i dont know, we can, hang out or somethin?
Ally: *blushes* okay, what time?
Danny: *big smile* great! uhh, how about around 6:00 pm or something?
Ally: Alright! I'll meet you over at the park then...
Danny: ok then
Ally: well i gotta go, but i'll see you tomorrow?!
Danny: ok, see u then....
-----next day------>>>
Ally walks over to the park and see's Danny sitting on a bench waiting for her. <<<
Ally: hey, whats up?
Danny: uhh nothin, im happy too see you
Ally: *smiles* me too
Danny: alright, how about we go take a walk
Ally: okay
----------------------------------------------------------------As they walk she grabs a hold of his hand, Danny*smiles* as they walk through the park.
----starts getting dark----
Ally: brrr, its getting a little cold out
Danny: wanna go sit on the grass under that tree?
Ally: sure
Danny and Ally: (takes a seat near a tree while Danny holds Ally in his arms keeping her warm)
Ally: thank you, i feel much better now
Danny: me too
Ally: *giggles* why is that?
Danny: cause im with you
Ally: im happy with you too
Danny: uhh, umm, ...nevermind
Ally: no, what is it, you can tell me
Danny: its just....
Ally: yea???
Danny: i feel different when im with you
Ally: what do you mean?
Danny: i mean, you make me wanna be with you for the rest of my life, ive never had anyone make me feel the way you make me feel...
Ally: *blushes* i feel like that too
Danny: i ... i .. lov.....
Ally: (leans over and kisses him)
-a few moments into kiss-
Danny: uhh *blushes*
Ally: i love you
Danny: i love you too and i always wil
l_Danny holds Ally as they look up at the stars_
Danny and Ally fall asleep under the stars....***************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************10
YEARS LATER
Ally: WORKING AS A MAGAZINE EDITOR, 24 YEARS OLD
Danny: WORKING AS A MEDICAL DOCTOR, 25YEARS OLD
The two dated up until prom night where Danny asked Ally to be his wife.....Ally Roberts is probably one of the happiest womenon earth, Danny is probably one of the luckiest man on earth...
Thursday, December 15, 2005
... Do You Know ...
Dear friends,
Tahukah anda kalau orang yang kelihatan begitu tegar hatinya, adalah orang yang sangat lemah dan butuh pertolongan?
Tahukah anda kalau orang yang menghabiskan waktunya untuk melindungi orang lain adalah justru orang yang sangat butuh seseorang untuk melindunginya?
Tahukah anda kalau tiga hal yang paling sulit untuk diungkapkan adalah : Aku cinta kamu, maaf dan tolong aku ?
Tahukah anda kalau orang yang suka berpakaian warna merah lebih yakin kepada dirinya sendiri?
Tahukah anda kalau orang yang suka berpakaian kuning adalah orang yang menikmati kecantikannya sendiri?
Tahukah anda kalau orang yang suka berpakaian hitam adalah orang yang ingin tidak diperhatikan dan butuh bantuan dan pengertian anda?
Tahukah anda kalau anda menolong seseorang, pertolongan tersebut dikembalikan dua kali lipat?
Tahukah anda bahwa lebih mudah mengatakan perasaan anda dalam tulisan dibandingkan mengatakan kepada seseorang secara langsung?
* Tapi tahukah anda bahwa hal tsb akan lebih bernilai saat anda mengatakannya dihadapan orang tsb?
Tahukah anda kalau anda memohon sesuatu dengan keyakinan, keinginan anda tsb pasti dikabulkan?
Tahukah anda bahwa anda bisa mewujudkan impian anda, spt jatuh cinta, menjadi kaya, selalu sehat, jika anda memintanya dengan keyakinan, dan jika anda benar2 tahu, anda akan terkejut dengan apa yang bisa anda lakukan.
*Tapi jangan percaya semua yang saya katakan, sebelum anda mencobanya sendiri, jika anda tahu seseorang yang benar2 butuh sesuatu yg saya sebutkan diatas, dan anda tahu anda bisa menolongnya, anda akan melihat bahwa pertolongan tsb akan dikembalikan dua kali lipat.
n.b. : Taken from Brontak Zine Mailling List
Tahukah anda kalau orang yang kelihatan begitu tegar hatinya, adalah orang yang sangat lemah dan butuh pertolongan?
Tahukah anda kalau orang yang menghabiskan waktunya untuk melindungi orang lain adalah justru orang yang sangat butuh seseorang untuk melindunginya?
Tahukah anda kalau tiga hal yang paling sulit untuk diungkapkan adalah : Aku cinta kamu, maaf dan tolong aku ?
Tahukah anda kalau orang yang suka berpakaian warna merah lebih yakin kepada dirinya sendiri?
Tahukah anda kalau orang yang suka berpakaian kuning adalah orang yang menikmati kecantikannya sendiri?
Tahukah anda kalau orang yang suka berpakaian hitam adalah orang yang ingin tidak diperhatikan dan butuh bantuan dan pengertian anda?
Tahukah anda kalau anda menolong seseorang, pertolongan tersebut dikembalikan dua kali lipat?
Tahukah anda bahwa lebih mudah mengatakan perasaan anda dalam tulisan dibandingkan mengatakan kepada seseorang secara langsung?
* Tapi tahukah anda bahwa hal tsb akan lebih bernilai saat anda mengatakannya dihadapan orang tsb?
Tahukah anda kalau anda memohon sesuatu dengan keyakinan, keinginan anda tsb pasti dikabulkan?
Tahukah anda bahwa anda bisa mewujudkan impian anda, spt jatuh cinta, menjadi kaya, selalu sehat, jika anda memintanya dengan keyakinan, dan jika anda benar2 tahu, anda akan terkejut dengan apa yang bisa anda lakukan.
*Tapi jangan percaya semua yang saya katakan, sebelum anda mencobanya sendiri, jika anda tahu seseorang yang benar2 butuh sesuatu yg saya sebutkan diatas, dan anda tahu anda bisa menolongnya, anda akan melihat bahwa pertolongan tsb akan dikembalikan dua kali lipat.
n.b. : Taken from Brontak Zine Mailling List
Think about this. You may not realize it, but it's true.
1. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. There are at least two people in this world that you would die for.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. You are special and unique.
8. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
10. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look again.
11. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. There are at least two people in this world that you would die for.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. You are special and unique.
8. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
10. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look again.
11. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
!!!Band Of The Week!!!
MAJESTY
Lagu : Internal Collaboration Armour
Iwan : Vocals & Guitar
Aduy : GuitarFarhan : Bass
Isan : Drums
Terbentuknya band ini didasari oleh keinginan masing-masing personilnya yang terbiasa memainkan musik yang lumayan keras untuk menyuguhkan musik akustik pop ala Dashboard Confessional sebagai musik mereka dalam Majesty ini. Para personilnya juga cukup lama malang melintang dalam scene hardcore punk di Jakarta. Dalam kompilasi ini lagu mereka yang berjudul Internal Collaboration Armour merupakan publikasi pertama karya kreatif mereka dalam bentuk rekaman.
Kontak : P’Chan > 08568518166
majesty_accoustic@yahoo.com
(review by Razzle - kaskus.com)
Red. : Salah satu band yang tergabung dalam kompilasi Anthem Of Tomorrow dari dE Records... Cocok buat anda yang suka dengan kesepian...
Lagu : Internal Collaboration Armour
Iwan : Vocals & Guitar
Aduy : GuitarFarhan : Bass
Isan : Drums
Terbentuknya band ini didasari oleh keinginan masing-masing personilnya yang terbiasa memainkan musik yang lumayan keras untuk menyuguhkan musik akustik pop ala Dashboard Confessional sebagai musik mereka dalam Majesty ini. Para personilnya juga cukup lama malang melintang dalam scene hardcore punk di Jakarta. Dalam kompilasi ini lagu mereka yang berjudul Internal Collaboration Armour merupakan publikasi pertama karya kreatif mereka dalam bentuk rekaman.
Kontak : P’Chan > 08568518166
majesty_accoustic@yahoo.com
(review by Razzle - kaskus.com)
Red. : Salah satu band yang tergabung dalam kompilasi Anthem Of Tomorrow dari dE Records... Cocok buat anda yang suka dengan kesepian...
???What's Wrong With Me???
Aaaahhhh... Kenapa yah, kita dikasih perasaan sama Tuhan... Seandainya setiap manusia tidak dikasih perasaan sama Tuhan, pastinya dunia ini bakal jadi lebih baik. Tidak ada tangis, tidak ada air mata, tidak ada rasa marah, ...Tidak ada rasa benci...
Selalu saja saat saya mulai bisa menikmati hidup saya, ada hal-hal yang *g penting* datang untuk merusaknya. Diri saya mulai down lagi, dan back to the past, now I'm desperate... Begitu banyaknya hal-hal tersebut sampai-sampai saya kemarin malam menangis dan berteriak kepada Tuhan... Apakah Tuhan mempermainkan saya...? Apakah saya ini...? Mengapa selalu saja hal-hal yang sama yang mengganggu hidup saya???
Yah, seperti yang bisa anda lihat, saya adalah orang yang pengecut. Saya sadar akan hal itu. Dan saya berusaha untuk 'membunuh' sifat saya itu. Sifat yang tidak pernah bisa menerima kenyataan... Sifat egois saya... Dan segala sifat-sifat yang mengimplikasi kesendirian saya... Saya ingin benar-benar membuang jauh-jauh segala sifat itu...
Selalu saja saat saya mulai bisa menikmati hidup saya, ada hal-hal yang *g penting* datang untuk merusaknya. Diri saya mulai down lagi, dan back to the past, now I'm desperate... Begitu banyaknya hal-hal tersebut sampai-sampai saya kemarin malam menangis dan berteriak kepada Tuhan... Apakah Tuhan mempermainkan saya...? Apakah saya ini...? Mengapa selalu saja hal-hal yang sama yang mengganggu hidup saya???
Yah, seperti yang bisa anda lihat, saya adalah orang yang pengecut. Saya sadar akan hal itu. Dan saya berusaha untuk 'membunuh' sifat saya itu. Sifat yang tidak pernah bisa menerima kenyataan... Sifat egois saya... Dan segala sifat-sifat yang mengimplikasi kesendirian saya... Saya ingin benar-benar membuang jauh-jauh segala sifat itu...
*AAAAHHHH... G PENTING DAN G JELAS UNTUK DIBACA*
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
!!Story Of A Lonely Guy!!
Push it out, fake a smile
Avert disaster just in time
I need a drink cause in a while
Worthless answer from friends of mind
It's dumb to ask, cool to ignore
Girls posess me, but they're never mine
I made my entrance, avoided hazards
Checked my engine, I fell behind
I fell behind
She makes me feel like it's raining outside
And when the storm's gone i'm all torn up inside
I'm always nervous on days like this like the prom
I get too scared to move, cause i'm a fucking boy
Remember when I was in the grocery store
now's my time
Lost the words,lost my nerve,
lost the girl, left the line
I would wish upon a star but that star it doesn't shine
So read my book with a boring ending
A short story of a lonely guy
I fell behind
She makes me feel like it's raining outside
And when the storm's gone i'm all torn up inside
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom
I get too scared to move, cause I'm a fucking boy
She makes me feel like it's raining outside
And when the storm's gone i'm all torn up inside
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom
I get too scared to move, cause i'm still just a stupid worthless boy
p. s. : Liriknya bagus juga...
Avert disaster just in time
I need a drink cause in a while
Worthless answer from friends of mind
It's dumb to ask, cool to ignore
Girls posess me, but they're never mine
I made my entrance, avoided hazards
Checked my engine, I fell behind
I fell behind
She makes me feel like it's raining outside
And when the storm's gone i'm all torn up inside
I'm always nervous on days like this like the prom
I get too scared to move, cause i'm a fucking boy
Remember when I was in the grocery store
now's my time
Lost the words,lost my nerve,
lost the girl, left the line
I would wish upon a star but that star it doesn't shine
So read my book with a boring ending
A short story of a lonely guy
I fell behind
She makes me feel like it's raining outside
And when the storm's gone i'm all torn up inside
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom
I get too scared to move, cause I'm a fucking boy
She makes me feel like it's raining outside
And when the storm's gone i'm all torn up inside
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom
I get too scared to move, cause i'm still just a stupid worthless boy
p. s. : Liriknya bagus juga...
Monday, December 12, 2005
THIS IS FUCK DECEMBER...
Hari Minggu kemaren, Bangun dari tidur Siang gW langsung kena semprot Nyokap..,,, SiialllLL... Ni smua gara2 Sowdara gW yang paling Brengsek.. yang pernah tinggal serumah sm gW..... Gak tau diri... gak tau diri... Aarrgghhh.... ( *It's not about my syster in Dempo Loh.. )
Gimana enggak... Cewe' Djakarta yang tahun ini sekolah di suatu SMAK di Kota Malang ini... Dititipin sm Ortunya bwt tinggal di rumah gW... enak khan ga usah bayar kost2an... Pokokny semua yang ada di rumah gW kepunyaanya Jugalah.... Eh dasar manusia Manja.. yang manjanya ga ketulungan.... Di kasih Ati minta Jantung.....
Bangsat ga seeh... Tlp rumah gW dipake se'enak uDhelnya sendiri... SiaLLL nominalnya ngalahin rekor gW yg pernah gW cetak dalam Sejarah pembayaran Tlephone rumah... bayangin Neeh.. yang byasannya cuman 100.000 skrg bengkak 10x lipet.....( berat ngomongnya..)
.......Saaatuuuu Juuuttaaaa......jack..!!
Alhasil .. Rencana gW bwt belanja2 waktu Natal jadi gagal Total........... SyaLLL bener...
Aaaaaaarrrrrggghhhhh...... FUCK my Djakarte Syster......
* Bwt yang ngerasa pernah Ngukir Rekor yang sama bareng gW... ........ " Rekor kita terkalahkan..!!! "
Sunday, December 11, 2005
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AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....
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AKU MARAH
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AKU INGIN MENANGIS...
...Poetic Tragedy...
the cup is not half empty as pessimists say
as far as he's sees nothings left in the cup
a whole cup full of nothing for him to induldge
since the voice of ambition has long since been shut up
a singer, a writer, he's not dreaming now of going nowhere
he gave heed to nothing,
and all that he was....
is just a tragedy
so he voyages in circles
succeeds getting nowhere
and submits to the substance
that first got him there
than in violent, frustration he cries out to God or just no one
is there a point to this madness and all that he was....
is just a tragedy
he feels alone
his heart in his hand he's alonehe feels alone
I feel.... then on that last day he breaksand he stood tall
and he yelled... and he takes his life
p.s. : Aahhh... Apakah anda tahu bagaimana rasanya dikucilkan... Dihina... Dianggap tidak ada...
as far as he's sees nothings left in the cup
a whole cup full of nothing for him to induldge
since the voice of ambition has long since been shut up
a singer, a writer, he's not dreaming now of going nowhere
he gave heed to nothing,
and all that he was....
is just a tragedy
so he voyages in circles
succeeds getting nowhere
and submits to the substance
that first got him there
than in violent, frustration he cries out to God or just no one
is there a point to this madness and all that he was....
is just a tragedy
he feels alone
his heart in his hand he's alonehe feels alone
I feel.... then on that last day he breaksand he stood tall
and he yelled... and he takes his life
p.s. : Aahhh... Apakah anda tahu bagaimana rasanya dikucilkan... Dihina... Dianggap tidak ada...
Saturday, December 10, 2005
...Thank You, Mom...
Always, always, and forever
Always, always, and forever
I'm sitting here, I'm thinking back to a time when I was young
My memory is clear as day, I'm listening to the dishes clink
You were downstairs, As you would sing songs of praise
And all the times we laughed with you
And all the times you stayed true to us
Now we'll say,
I said I thank you
I will always thank you, More than you would know
Than I could ever show, And I love you, I will always love you
There's nothing I won't do to say these words to you
That you're beautiful forever
Always, always, and forever
You were my mom, You were my dad
The only thing I ever had was you, It's true
And even when the times got hard you were there
To let us know that we'd get through
You showed me how to be a man
You taught me how to understand the things people do
You showed me how to love my god,
You taught me that not everyone knows the truth
And I thank you, I'll always thank you
More than you would know, Than I could ever show
And I love you, I'll always love you,
There's nothing I won't do to say these words to you
That you will live forever
Forever and everForever and ever
I said I thank you, We'll always thank you
More than you would know, Than I could ever show
And I love you, I'll always love you,
There's nothing I won't do to say these words to you,
That I thank you, We'll always thank you
More than you would know, Than I could ever show
And I'll love you, We'll always love you,
There's nothing I won't do to say these words to you
That you will live forever
n.b. : {...in a deep feel 'bout my mom...}
Always, always, and forever
I'm sitting here, I'm thinking back to a time when I was young
My memory is clear as day, I'm listening to the dishes clink
You were downstairs, As you would sing songs of praise
And all the times we laughed with you
And all the times you stayed true to us
Now we'll say,
I said I thank you
I will always thank you, More than you would know
Than I could ever show, And I love you, I will always love you
There's nothing I won't do to say these words to you
That you're beautiful forever
Always, always, and forever
You were my mom, You were my dad
The only thing I ever had was you, It's true
And even when the times got hard you were there
To let us know that we'd get through
You showed me how to be a man
You taught me how to understand the things people do
You showed me how to love my god,
You taught me that not everyone knows the truth
And I thank you, I'll always thank you
More than you would know, Than I could ever show
And I love you, I'll always love you,
There's nothing I won't do to say these words to you
That you will live forever
Forever and everForever and ever
I said I thank you, We'll always thank you
More than you would know, Than I could ever show
And I love you, I'll always love you,
There's nothing I won't do to say these words to you,
That I thank you, We'll always thank you
More than you would know, Than I could ever show
And I'll love you, We'll always love you,
There's nothing I won't do to say these words to you
That you will live forever
n.b. : {...in a deep feel 'bout my mom...}
...Perfect...
Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to the plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend thatI'm alright
And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
I try not to thinkAbout the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
p. s. : 'Sorry, dad, i never meant to hurt you...'
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to the plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend thatI'm alright
And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
I try not to thinkAbout the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
p. s. : 'Sorry, dad, i never meant to hurt you...'
Thursday, December 08, 2005
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
!!! .I.W.A.S.P.I.S.S.E.D.O.F.F. !!!
AAARRRGGHHH...
I WAS PISSED OFF TODAY!!!
Uuuhhh... fuck... Hari ini orang tua saya dipanggil lagi ke sekolah untuk yang ke-3 kalinya. Bukan masalah yang besar sih sebenarnya... Hanya masalah tindik saya yang di lidah ketauan oleh Pak Hari, guru sejarah saya. Oleh si brengsek itu dilaporkan lagi ke si bangsat Trijaka...
Aaahhh... Jadilah... Awalnya saya pikir aman-aman saja. 'Alah, palingan juga entar dikasih tau buat ini itu...' , gitu pikir saya sebelumnya. Tapi yang jadi masalah, disitu juga ada Si Botak Baju Putih, Bu Titik, Sensei Thomas, Suster, dll. WTF!!! Mereka rembugan mengenai keadaan saya. Katanya saya anak bermasalah lah, kurang perhatian lah... ALAH!! BULLSHIT!!! HE, KUNYUK, LO TU BUKAN BOKAP GW, BUKAN NYOKAP GW!!!!! APA HAK LO NGATA-NGATAIN GW....!!!
Kalau yang dihina-hina hanya saya saja, saya cukup fair untuk bisa menerima. Tapi si mulut ember Trijaka bikin keruh suasana... Dia bilang -> "Bagaimana cara Bapak mendidik anak? Kok pake tindik dibiarin...?" Aaaahhhh....!!! Ini nih yang paling saya benci... Orang yang hanya bisa menimpakan kesalahan orang pada orang lain. Orang tua saya gak ada hubungannya dengan hal ini tau!!! Kenapa gak secara fair kita omong-omongan...? Kenapa harus dengan cara tersebut?? Sejujurnya saya sakit hati.
Tapi kenapa hanya saya...? Saya pikir kadar 'kenakalan' saya gak lebih bejat dari temen-temen saya... Ada yang cabut dari rumah gak pulang-pulang... Ada yang kerjaannya berantem terus... Ada yang pakaw... Uuuuhhh... Kenapa mesti saya??? Apa karena saya ini terlihat lemah di sekolah, sehingga hanya saya yang dipanggil? Apa anda tidak punya nyali untuk memanggil mereka-mereka yang notabene anggota geng-gengnya Malang? Yang lebih bejat dari saya...???!!!
DASAR MENTAL KACRUT LO PADE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Awas, tunggu gw lulusan... Trijaka... Bakal gw bunuh lo... Gw abisin rumah lo... Sampe lo minta ampun ke gw sama temen-temen gw yang pernah lo sakitin... Sampe lo kencing nanah... Sampe lo gak bisa bicara lagi...
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Alexandria : Between Love And Obsession
Saya baru aja pulang dari Matos, nonton Alexandria. Yah, kesan pertama ketika saya ditawari nonton film tersebut adalah.. 'Yah, kok nonton film cinta-cintaan sich? Basi banget!". Tetapi ketika saya mulai duduk dan menikmati filmnya (walau rada gak jelas alur ceritanya) saya sangat tertarik dengan film tersebut.
Secara garis besar film tersebut menceritakan tentang seorang laki-laki (saya lupa namanya) yang suka pada wanita yang bernama Alex sejak kecil, tetapi tidak pernah berani untuk mengucapkannya secara langsung. Lalu muncul laki-laki lain (saya juga lupa namanya) yang mengambil hati si wanita. Lalu konflik pun berlanjut hingga pada satu adegan dimana Alex bertengkar dengan kedua laki-laki tersebut.
Yang membuat saya tersentuh adalah pada bagian dimana Alex mengucapkan suatu hal pada laki-laki pertama -> "... Kalo lo emang bener sayang ma gue, harusnya lo ngucapin itu sejak lama... Laki-laki yang lo bilang brengsek ini lebih bisa menunjukkan rasa sayangnya ke gue. bagi gue, perasaan lo itu bukan cinta... tetapi obsesi..."
Degg.... Waawww... pernyataan 'dewasa' sang Alex cukup membuat sadar diri saya. Benarkah saya cinta kepada 'dia'... Apakah itu mungkin hanya obsesi saya saja... Aaahhh... pada titik tersebut saya sadar bahwa batas antara obsesi dan cinta itu sangat tipis. Hampir gak ada malah. Kita tidak pernah sadar kita memang mencintai ataukah hanya sekedar obsesi belaka saja sampai kita 'jatuh' di dalamnya.
Aaahhh... Saya sangat bingung dengan hal ini. Seseorang, siapa saja, bantu saya menjawab pertanyaan ini... 'Apakah cinta itu...?'; 'Apakah obsesi itu...?; 'Bagaimanakah batas-batas antara obsesi dan cinta...?' dan 'Jika saya memang 'terobsesi', mengapakah saya selalu ingin menunjukkan rasa sayang saya padanya...'. Sejujurnya saya ingin kisah saya berakhir seperti si laki-laki pertama... Tidak sadar akan perasaannya hingga benar-benar jatuh di dalamnya...
Secara garis besar film tersebut menceritakan tentang seorang laki-laki (saya lupa namanya) yang suka pada wanita yang bernama Alex sejak kecil, tetapi tidak pernah berani untuk mengucapkannya secara langsung. Lalu muncul laki-laki lain (saya juga lupa namanya) yang mengambil hati si wanita. Lalu konflik pun berlanjut hingga pada satu adegan dimana Alex bertengkar dengan kedua laki-laki tersebut.
Yang membuat saya tersentuh adalah pada bagian dimana Alex mengucapkan suatu hal pada laki-laki pertama -> "... Kalo lo emang bener sayang ma gue, harusnya lo ngucapin itu sejak lama... Laki-laki yang lo bilang brengsek ini lebih bisa menunjukkan rasa sayangnya ke gue. bagi gue, perasaan lo itu bukan cinta... tetapi obsesi..."
Degg.... Waawww... pernyataan 'dewasa' sang Alex cukup membuat sadar diri saya. Benarkah saya cinta kepada 'dia'... Apakah itu mungkin hanya obsesi saya saja... Aaahhh... pada titik tersebut saya sadar bahwa batas antara obsesi dan cinta itu sangat tipis. Hampir gak ada malah. Kita tidak pernah sadar kita memang mencintai ataukah hanya sekedar obsesi belaka saja sampai kita 'jatuh' di dalamnya.
Aaahhh... Saya sangat bingung dengan hal ini. Seseorang, siapa saja, bantu saya menjawab pertanyaan ini... 'Apakah cinta itu...?'; 'Apakah obsesi itu...?; 'Bagaimanakah batas-batas antara obsesi dan cinta...?' dan 'Jika saya memang 'terobsesi', mengapakah saya selalu ingin menunjukkan rasa sayang saya padanya...'. Sejujurnya saya ingin kisah saya berakhir seperti si laki-laki pertama... Tidak sadar akan perasaannya hingga benar-benar jatuh di dalamnya...
...10 Kinds Of People That Must Be Killed...
1. Orang yang tidak punya pendirian dan prinsip hidup.
2. Orang yang tidak pernah peka dengan keadaan sekitarnya. (It means that you're heartless.)
3. Orang yang berpura-pura menjadi orang lain supaya bisa dipandang 'wah'.
4. Orang yang bisanya hanya mencari-cari kesalahan orang lain.
5. Orang yang cuma bisa sesumbar tapi gak ada hasilnya.
6. Orang yang pengecut.
7. Orang yang gak pernah bisa belajar dari kesalahan.
8. Orang yang suka menonjolkan apa yang gak seharusnya ditonjolkan secara berlebihan... Ex: Sex Appeals... Big fucking money... Your damn faces... Your fucking great body...
9. Orang yang gak mau berusaha untuk mendapatkan sesuatu yang dia inginkan.
10. ...Orang yang gak mau menghargai sahabatnya.
n.b. : Untuk poin nomer 10 saya jadi inget kata-katanya Kakashi Hatake dalam komik Naruto jilid 2 -> '... Ninja itu harus melihat yang lebih dalam dari yang terdalam. Semua yg melanggar aturan dan hukum ninja itu disebut sampah! ... Tetapi orang yang tak menjaga teman seperjuangannya... LEBIH RENDAH DARI SAMPAH...'
2. Orang yang tidak pernah peka dengan keadaan sekitarnya. (It means that you're heartless.)
3. Orang yang berpura-pura menjadi orang lain supaya bisa dipandang 'wah'.
4. Orang yang bisanya hanya mencari-cari kesalahan orang lain.
5. Orang yang cuma bisa sesumbar tapi gak ada hasilnya.
6. Orang yang pengecut.
7. Orang yang gak pernah bisa belajar dari kesalahan.
8. Orang yang suka menonjolkan apa yang gak seharusnya ditonjolkan secara berlebihan... Ex: Sex Appeals... Big fucking money... Your damn faces... Your fucking great body...
9. Orang yang gak mau berusaha untuk mendapatkan sesuatu yang dia inginkan.
10. ...Orang yang gak mau menghargai sahabatnya.
n.b. : Untuk poin nomer 10 saya jadi inget kata-katanya Kakashi Hatake dalam komik Naruto jilid 2 -> '... Ninja itu harus melihat yang lebih dalam dari yang terdalam. Semua yg melanggar aturan dan hukum ninja itu disebut sampah! ... Tetapi orang yang tak menjaga teman seperjuangannya... LEBIH RENDAH DARI SAMPAH...'
Monday, December 05, 2005
Sunday, December 04, 2005
...The Price For Love...
The lights go out in my corner of the world tonight
And so do the lights in your eyes
Yeah so did the lights in your eyes
Now I don’t want to preach at you,
I just care too much
To let you walk away from this
And He died, so never forget, forget His love
Yeah He died, to show us, the price you pay for love
I never said that this would be easy
In fact it’s the hardest thing that you will ever do
But don’t worry they will never capture you
You’ve already been set free from this
So right your wrongs and make your amends
We are running out of time
This is our song that we sing from the mountain
Can you hear it, can you hear it
This is our song that we sing to You
Can you hear me, can you hear me
p.s. : The only song that touched my heart...
Now I believe in Him. Shouts to The Wedding... I Love You, Jesus...
And so do the lights in your eyes
Yeah so did the lights in your eyes
Now I don’t want to preach at you,
I just care too much
To let you walk away from this
And He died, so never forget, forget His love
Yeah He died, to show us, the price you pay for love
I never said that this would be easy
In fact it’s the hardest thing that you will ever do
But don’t worry they will never capture you
You’ve already been set free from this
So right your wrongs and make your amends
We are running out of time
This is our song that we sing from the mountain
Can you hear it, can you hear it
This is our song that we sing to You
Can you hear me, can you hear me
p.s. : The only song that touched my heart...
Now I believe in Him. Shouts to The Wedding... I Love You, Jesus...
Saturday, December 03, 2005
!!!I HATE SCHOOL!!!
Aaahh... Dempo... Tempat terkutuk dimana semua orang selalu mencari-cari kesalahan orang lain... Sebuah tempat yang paling baik untuk tidak membiarkan jiwa dan perasaan muda anda berkembang... Aaaahhh.... FUCK!!!
Bayangkan, teman, dalam satu semester ini ada setidaknya 16 pelanggaran di tatibsi saya (Itu setara dengan pelanggaran 2 tahun anda skul di Dempo...), dan itu adalah pelanggaran yang cukup sepele. Semisal :
1. Keceplosan bicara kotor (2x)... <- Yang namanya arema kalo nggak ngomong 'jancok' atau 'jiangkrik' bukan arema namanya...
2. Lupa bawa buku pelajaran (5x)... <- Guru aja bisa lupa, masa muridnya enggak.. Kita kan cuma manusia biasa, teman... 3. Tidak mengerjakan PR (6x)... <- Saya bukannya malas, hanya waktunya tidak tepat. Guru saja bisa males ngoreksi ulangan... Mang dasarnya cuma bisa mencari-cari kesalahan orang dengan dalih kedisiplinan... 4. Merokok di sekolah (2x)... <- Alah, orang tua saya aja nggak ngelarang, kenapa lo yang sewot...? Pak Windi = Jancok...
5. Menggambar waktu jam pelajaran (1x)... <- Ini namanya pembatasan kreatifitas... Dan yang terparah... Larangan untuk mengenakan topi! Logis gak sih, alesannya bisa mengganggu aktifitas belajar mengajar... Trus apa hubungannya??? Alah, percuma saya berdebat. Akibatnya topi saya 2x dirampas oleh sang guru -> 1. Pak Hari JANCOK dan 2. Bu Pudji KIRIK...
Dan tampaknya sentimen negatif terhadap saya makin bertambah... Selama 2 minggu ini saya dicuekkin oleh Guru Bhs. Inggris saya -> Bu Pudji ASU. Gara-garanya sepele -> Lupa mengerjakan tugas. Alesan yang cukup dibuat-buat... Padahal saya waktu itu mengerjakan, hanya saja buku saya tertukar dengan buku matematika. Yah, jadilah, saya dicuekkin secuek-cueknya... Gak cuma itu, soal ulangan saya dibedakan dengan anak lain... Yang 5X lebih sulit bin sukar... Dasar anjing...
Itu semua gak akan terjadi jika kelas kami mempunyai wali kelas yang, menurut pendapat saya, lebih mirip dengan TAEK dan SILIT... Wali kelas yang, uuhh sumpah..., gak jelas rupanya dan asal-usulnya apalagi dengan cara mengajarnya yang super-duper gak jelas... Bagi saya, Guru tersebut lebih pantes ikut wayang orang daripada mengajar di skul sekelas Dempo...
Ahhh... Masih banyak lagi kejadian yang cukup shit untuk diceritain... Dan karena keterbatasan waktu saya hanya bisa berkomentar: FUCK DEMPO!!!
Bayangkan, teman, dalam satu semester ini ada setidaknya 16 pelanggaran di tatibsi saya (Itu setara dengan pelanggaran 2 tahun anda skul di Dempo...), dan itu adalah pelanggaran yang cukup sepele. Semisal :
1. Keceplosan bicara kotor (2x)... <- Yang namanya arema kalo nggak ngomong 'jancok' atau 'jiangkrik' bukan arema namanya...
2. Lupa bawa buku pelajaran (5x)... <- Guru aja bisa lupa, masa muridnya enggak.. Kita kan cuma manusia biasa, teman... 3. Tidak mengerjakan PR (6x)... <- Saya bukannya malas, hanya waktunya tidak tepat. Guru saja bisa males ngoreksi ulangan... Mang dasarnya cuma bisa mencari-cari kesalahan orang dengan dalih kedisiplinan... 4. Merokok di sekolah (2x)... <- Alah, orang tua saya aja nggak ngelarang, kenapa lo yang sewot...? Pak Windi = Jancok...
5. Menggambar waktu jam pelajaran (1x)... <- Ini namanya pembatasan kreatifitas... Dan yang terparah... Larangan untuk mengenakan topi! Logis gak sih, alesannya bisa mengganggu aktifitas belajar mengajar... Trus apa hubungannya??? Alah, percuma saya berdebat. Akibatnya topi saya 2x dirampas oleh sang guru -> 1. Pak Hari JANCOK dan 2. Bu Pudji KIRIK...
Dan tampaknya sentimen negatif terhadap saya makin bertambah... Selama 2 minggu ini saya dicuekkin oleh Guru Bhs. Inggris saya -> Bu Pudji ASU. Gara-garanya sepele -> Lupa mengerjakan tugas. Alesan yang cukup dibuat-buat... Padahal saya waktu itu mengerjakan, hanya saja buku saya tertukar dengan buku matematika. Yah, jadilah, saya dicuekkin secuek-cueknya... Gak cuma itu, soal ulangan saya dibedakan dengan anak lain... Yang 5X lebih sulit bin sukar... Dasar anjing...
Itu semua gak akan terjadi jika kelas kami mempunyai wali kelas yang, menurut pendapat saya, lebih mirip dengan TAEK dan SILIT... Wali kelas yang, uuhh sumpah..., gak jelas rupanya dan asal-usulnya apalagi dengan cara mengajarnya yang super-duper gak jelas... Bagi saya, Guru tersebut lebih pantes ikut wayang orang daripada mengajar di skul sekelas Dempo...
Ahhh... Masih banyak lagi kejadian yang cukup shit untuk diceritain... Dan karena keterbatasan waktu saya hanya bisa berkomentar: FUCK DEMPO!!!
The Chronicles Of Love And Friendship
Love and friendship... Mana yang lebih penting bagi anda? Saya yakin sebagian besar dari anda semua pasti memilih cinta. Ya! Cinta adalah sesuatu yang memabukkan... Cinta adalah sesiatu yang bisa membawa anda terbang menuju ke awang-awang... Cinta adalah sesuatu yang... menghancurkan... Kita tidak bisa memilih cinta. Cintalah yang memilih kita. Dan kita semua, sadar atau tidak, dipermainkan oleh cinta. Tapi untuk mencintai dan dicintai adalah sesuatu yang manis...
Aaahhh.. Cut the whole crap, man! Ahemm... Bagi saya pribadi, cinta itu penting. Saya akan memperjuangkan apapun untuk bisa menemukan cinta sejati saya, yaitu, yahh... tulang rusuk saya yang hilang itu. Hehehe..
Ehm, jujur saja, kalau anda membaca post-post saya sebelumnya, anda akan tahu kalau saya termasuk orang yang payah dalam hal bercinta. Ehm, bukan 'bercinta' yang itu lhoo... Ini adalah cinta dalam arti yang sebenarnya. Yang mau mengorbankan hal-hal pribadi demi orang lain. Yah, saya cukup payah dalam hal itu. Semua hal yang semula saya pikir akan menyenangkan hatinya, ternyata merupakan suatu hal yang buruk bagi anggapan dia. Hahahaha... Mungkin cara saya yang salah. Tapi, whatta fuck... Who cares? Saya percaya dengan diri saya, dan saya percaya kalau cara yang lakukan itu benar. Saya tidak perduli dengan anggapan dia... :-)
Okay, back to the point... Cinta... Persahabatan... Saya cukup terpesona dengan dua kata tersebut. Di satu sisi kita butuh dicintai oleh lawan jenis dan di sisi yang lain kita juga perlu dicintai dengan teman-teman kita. Kita adalah makhluk sosial, ingat? :-) Jadi, seandainya saya diberi pilihan: kamu akan mendapatkan pacar, tetapi kamu kehilangan salah satu temanmu; atau kamu memilih temanmu tetapi dari dalam dasar hatimu kamu merasa sakit... Saya tidak akan pikir panjang lagi, saya akan dengan bulat hati akan memilih... persahabatan.
Ya! Prinsip hidup saya selama ini adalah 'Pacar bisa dicari, tetapi teman adalah suatu anugerah yang berharga'. Maksudnya, buat apa sih, kita bela-belain pacar kalau kita kehilangan teman? Coba kalau kamu mengalami masalah... Apakah pacar kamu selalu sanggup membantu? Menurut pendapat saya, belum tentu. Tetapi teman berbeda! Seorang sahabat sejati rela memberikan nyawanya bagi sahabatnya... <- Cari di Alkitab kalau gak percaya! Hehehehe...
Yah, mungkin ini sudah merupakan alasan yang cukup untuk menyelesaikan permasalahan saya... I'd give up my feeling to my friend. Hahahaa... Dude, if coincidentally you read this, please forgive me... I never meant to fucked you down... :-)
Be well, peace...
n.b. : Heyy, dude, maksud gw lo dengerin lagu-lagunya Mandy Moore ma Michelle Branch itu tapi yang nyanyi tu Noise Ratchet ma Yellowcard... Yeaaaa...
Aaahhh.. Cut the whole crap, man! Ahemm... Bagi saya pribadi, cinta itu penting. Saya akan memperjuangkan apapun untuk bisa menemukan cinta sejati saya, yaitu, yahh... tulang rusuk saya yang hilang itu. Hehehe..
Ehm, jujur saja, kalau anda membaca post-post saya sebelumnya, anda akan tahu kalau saya termasuk orang yang payah dalam hal bercinta. Ehm, bukan 'bercinta' yang itu lhoo... Ini adalah cinta dalam arti yang sebenarnya. Yang mau mengorbankan hal-hal pribadi demi orang lain. Yah, saya cukup payah dalam hal itu. Semua hal yang semula saya pikir akan menyenangkan hatinya, ternyata merupakan suatu hal yang buruk bagi anggapan dia. Hahahaha... Mungkin cara saya yang salah. Tapi, whatta fuck... Who cares? Saya percaya dengan diri saya, dan saya percaya kalau cara yang lakukan itu benar. Saya tidak perduli dengan anggapan dia... :-)
Okay, back to the point... Cinta... Persahabatan... Saya cukup terpesona dengan dua kata tersebut. Di satu sisi kita butuh dicintai oleh lawan jenis dan di sisi yang lain kita juga perlu dicintai dengan teman-teman kita. Kita adalah makhluk sosial, ingat? :-) Jadi, seandainya saya diberi pilihan: kamu akan mendapatkan pacar, tetapi kamu kehilangan salah satu temanmu; atau kamu memilih temanmu tetapi dari dalam dasar hatimu kamu merasa sakit... Saya tidak akan pikir panjang lagi, saya akan dengan bulat hati akan memilih... persahabatan.
Ya! Prinsip hidup saya selama ini adalah 'Pacar bisa dicari, tetapi teman adalah suatu anugerah yang berharga'. Maksudnya, buat apa sih, kita bela-belain pacar kalau kita kehilangan teman? Coba kalau kamu mengalami masalah... Apakah pacar kamu selalu sanggup membantu? Menurut pendapat saya, belum tentu. Tetapi teman berbeda! Seorang sahabat sejati rela memberikan nyawanya bagi sahabatnya... <- Cari di Alkitab kalau gak percaya! Hehehehe...
Yah, mungkin ini sudah merupakan alasan yang cukup untuk menyelesaikan permasalahan saya... I'd give up my feeling to my friend. Hahahaa... Dude, if coincidentally you read this, please forgive me... I never meant to fucked you down... :-)
Be well, peace...
n.b. : Heyy, dude, maksud gw lo dengerin lagu-lagunya Mandy Moore ma Michelle Branch itu tapi yang nyanyi tu Noise Ratchet ma Yellowcard... Yeaaaa...
Hey, world.. This is Henry's writing...
Duh.. bner2 December kelabu ni... udah beberapa Minggu ini gw ga kluar malem Mingguan..
Gw bener-bener males dajakin kluar-kluar ma temen2.. Gmna yah... rasany males .. padahal kgak byasany Gw kaya gini.. andai ada yang tau perasaan Gw.. Huhhhh..... Gw lagi gelisah banget mikirin "adek klas" gw.. apa salah gw.. gw bner-bner kga ngerti.. tp yang pasti rasany dya males bgt ngliat gw.. walaupun d skul tetep nyapa seeh.. tpi gw tau dya berubah.. something wrong .. mungkin gw... tapi sumpah.. gw bener2 ga taw.. pengen rasanya dia ngomong ke gW.. apa sih masalahnya.. rasany lama bangt dya ga Sms atawa ngasih kabar ke gw.. pdhal tiap hari gw H2C niyh.. kapan yah dya SMs gW.. Misal nih kalo hr ini gw mati.. gw bakalan jadi hantu penasaran.. heHehe.. ini misal Loh.. tp kLo keadaany kaya gni truss gw bner2 ga mao.. Somebody help me...b
Gw bener-bener males dajakin kluar-kluar ma temen2.. Gmna yah... rasany males .. padahal kgak byasany Gw kaya gini.. andai ada yang tau perasaan Gw.. Huhhhh..... Gw lagi gelisah banget mikirin "adek klas" gw.. apa salah gw.. gw bner-bner kga ngerti.. tp yang pasti rasany dya males bgt ngliat gw.. walaupun d skul tetep nyapa seeh.. tpi gw tau dya berubah.. something wrong .. mungkin gw... tapi sumpah.. gw bener2 ga taw.. pengen rasanya dia ngomong ke gW.. apa sih masalahnya.. rasany lama bangt dya ga Sms atawa ngasih kabar ke gw.. pdhal tiap hari gw H2C niyh.. kapan yah dya SMs gW.. Misal nih kalo hr ini gw mati.. gw bakalan jadi hantu penasaran.. heHehe.. ini misal Loh.. tp kLo keadaany kaya gni truss gw bner2 ga mao.. Somebody help me...b
Friday, December 02, 2005
...Crush...
Ohhh doo doo doo doo doo doo
You know everything that I'm afraid of
And you do everything I wish I did
Everybody wants you, everybody loves you
I know I should tell you how I feelin'
I wish everyone would disappear
And every time you call me, I'm just scared to be me
And I'm too shy to say
[CHORUS]Ooh, I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that I do
I get a rushWhen I'm with you
Ooh, I got a crush on you
You know, I'm the one that you can talk to
And sometimes you tell me thing that I don't wanna know
I just want to hold you
And you say exactly how you feel about her
And I wonder, could you ever think of me that way, ohhh (bop bop bop bop)
[CHORUS]
Ooh, I wish I could tell somebody
But there's no one to talk to
Nobody knows I've got a crush on you
[Instrumental]
Doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo [x3]
Doo doo doo doo doo doo
I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that I do
I get a rushWhen I'm with you
Ooh, I got a crush on you I got a crush on you [x2]
{Don't listen to the Mandy Moore version! Noise Ratchet Rawkkzz!!!}
You know everything that I'm afraid of
And you do everything I wish I did
Everybody wants you, everybody loves you
I know I should tell you how I feelin'
I wish everyone would disappear
And every time you call me, I'm just scared to be me
And I'm too shy to say
[CHORUS]Ooh, I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that I do
I get a rushWhen I'm with you
Ooh, I got a crush on you
You know, I'm the one that you can talk to
And sometimes you tell me thing that I don't wanna know
I just want to hold you
And you say exactly how you feel about her
And I wonder, could you ever think of me that way, ohhh (bop bop bop bop)
[CHORUS]
Ooh, I wish I could tell somebody
But there's no one to talk to
Nobody knows I've got a crush on you
[Instrumental]
Doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo [x3]
Doo doo doo doo doo doo
I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that I do
I get a rushWhen I'm with you
Ooh, I got a crush on you I got a crush on you [x2]
{Don't listen to the Mandy Moore version! Noise Ratchet Rawkkzz!!!}
!!A Big Hug For My Pal!!
Wah, saya cukup kaget ada 'makhluk tak diundang' di blog saya... Hahahahah... Welcome to my world, dude! Saya harap anda juga tidak kaget terhadap keadaan diri saya yang sebenarnya...
Yaahh... Ternyata ada juga 'teman' saya yang hidupnya kurang lebih sama dengan saya. Saya sebenarnya tidak menyangka, lho, yang namanya Henry bisa juga merasa hopeless dan down-strokes. Hahahaha... Yang saya tahu Henry itu adalah salah satu orang yang tidak berbeda dengan dunia ini. Sama 'fake'-nya... Hahahahaha... Bisa juga toh, dia merasakan apa yang namanya 'emo-feelings'. Yaahh... What can I say... Welcome to this world...
Saya juga setuju terhadap pemikiran dia dalam menjalani hidup, bahwa dia 'menutup diri' terhadap segala kepalsuan di dunia ini. Waahhh... What a brilliant thought, dude! I'd give you with my 3rd thumbs if I have!
Benar! Menutup diri terhadap lingkungan adalah hal pertama yang saya lakukan untuk mengatasi masalah dalam diri saya. Saya tidak merasa perlu untuk menengok kepada orang lain jika mereka pun tidak merasa perlu menengok kepada saya. Saya selalu merasa asyik dengan kenangan-kenangan masa lalu dengan teman-teman seperjuangan saya dan atmosfir lingkungan saya di masa lampau. Saya merasa dunia baru yang saya lalui sangat-sangat berbeda dengan yang sudah-sudah. Yeaahhh... (sekali lagi) bukan berati saya tidak mencoba untuk beradaptasi, lho! Hanya saja saya merasa apa yang saya lakukan tidak sesuai dengan apa yang mereka inginkan. Dan bisa saya katakan, dunia saya yang lalu jauh lebih baik dengan dunia saya yang sekarang ini... Dan saya selalu merasa demikian terhadap keadaan saya yang sekarang ini...
Yah, pada awalnya memang menutup diri adalah hal yang selalu saya lakukan. Namun, seiring dengan perkembangan waktu, saya selalu berpikir bahwa ini adalah salah satu masalah dalam diri saya. Dan masalah itu dikasih sama Tuhan sebagai anugerah. It's a gift. Tuhan memberikan masalah kepada diri kita sebagai proses pembelajaran kita untuk menjadi dewasa, dan proses itu memerlukan pengorbanan. Yeaaa... Dalam menghadapi masalah2 itu saya sadar kalau menutup diri adalah jalan yang cukup buruk untuk menyelesaikan masalah. Yang perlu saya lakukan adalah menjadi bagian dalam diri mereka dan melihat apa yang bisa saya lakukan agar mereka bisa melihat diri saya dalam keadaan saya yang sebenarnya, tanpa perlu ada senyum-senyum palsu atau hal-hal yang dibuat-buat. Berdasarkan pengalaman saya hal itu butuh proses. :-)
Mungkin ini hanya share saja buat temanku, Henry.. Cieee... Bahasanya... Ehm, tapi sumpah, saya pada dasarnya adalah... saya. Lihatlah saya sedalam-dalamnya dan anda akan tahu apa yang saya maksudkan. Uuuhhh... Dan ada lagi satu hal yang bisa saya pelajari... 'Saya tidak sendirian di dunia ini...' Thx, dude!
Yaahh... Ternyata ada juga 'teman' saya yang hidupnya kurang lebih sama dengan saya. Saya sebenarnya tidak menyangka, lho, yang namanya Henry bisa juga merasa hopeless dan down-strokes. Hahahaha... Yang saya tahu Henry itu adalah salah satu orang yang tidak berbeda dengan dunia ini. Sama 'fake'-nya... Hahahahaha... Bisa juga toh, dia merasakan apa yang namanya 'emo-feelings'. Yaahh... What can I say... Welcome to this world...
Saya juga setuju terhadap pemikiran dia dalam menjalani hidup, bahwa dia 'menutup diri' terhadap segala kepalsuan di dunia ini. Waahhh... What a brilliant thought, dude! I'd give you with my 3rd thumbs if I have!
Benar! Menutup diri terhadap lingkungan adalah hal pertama yang saya lakukan untuk mengatasi masalah dalam diri saya. Saya tidak merasa perlu untuk menengok kepada orang lain jika mereka pun tidak merasa perlu menengok kepada saya. Saya selalu merasa asyik dengan kenangan-kenangan masa lalu dengan teman-teman seperjuangan saya dan atmosfir lingkungan saya di masa lampau. Saya merasa dunia baru yang saya lalui sangat-sangat berbeda dengan yang sudah-sudah. Yeaahhh... (sekali lagi) bukan berati saya tidak mencoba untuk beradaptasi, lho! Hanya saja saya merasa apa yang saya lakukan tidak sesuai dengan apa yang mereka inginkan. Dan bisa saya katakan, dunia saya yang lalu jauh lebih baik dengan dunia saya yang sekarang ini... Dan saya selalu merasa demikian terhadap keadaan saya yang sekarang ini...
Yah, pada awalnya memang menutup diri adalah hal yang selalu saya lakukan. Namun, seiring dengan perkembangan waktu, saya selalu berpikir bahwa ini adalah salah satu masalah dalam diri saya. Dan masalah itu dikasih sama Tuhan sebagai anugerah. It's a gift. Tuhan memberikan masalah kepada diri kita sebagai proses pembelajaran kita untuk menjadi dewasa, dan proses itu memerlukan pengorbanan. Yeaaa... Dalam menghadapi masalah2 itu saya sadar kalau menutup diri adalah jalan yang cukup buruk untuk menyelesaikan masalah. Yang perlu saya lakukan adalah menjadi bagian dalam diri mereka dan melihat apa yang bisa saya lakukan agar mereka bisa melihat diri saya dalam keadaan saya yang sebenarnya, tanpa perlu ada senyum-senyum palsu atau hal-hal yang dibuat-buat. Berdasarkan pengalaman saya hal itu butuh proses. :-)
Mungkin ini hanya share saja buat temanku, Henry.. Cieee... Bahasanya... Ehm, tapi sumpah, saya pada dasarnya adalah... saya. Lihatlah saya sedalam-dalamnya dan anda akan tahu apa yang saya maksudkan. Uuuhhh... Dan ada lagi satu hal yang bisa saya pelajari... 'Saya tidak sendirian di dunia ini...' Thx, dude!
!!I'm Proud of Myself!!
Mmmm... Sudah cukup lama saya tidak menulis hal-hal mengenai diri saya. Ada beberapa hal yang (mungkin) berubah dari diri saya. Hal-hal yang sangat mungkin tidak ingin saya ingat lagi; Hal-hal yang sangat mengganggu diri saya; Dan sangat mungkin hal-hal tersebut yang menghambat saya untuk berkembang...
Yahh... Saya telah belajar banyak hal dalam beberapa minggu ini. Saya telah belajar untuk bagaimana untuk menghargai orang lain.. Saya belajar bagaimana untuk menjadi yang terbaik bagi diri saya tanpa harus mengikuti apa kata orang lain.. Saya juga telah belajar untuk menghargai diri saya sendiri.. Sangat mungkin, hal-hal kecil tersebut adalah 'jawaban' yang sangat ingin saya dapatkan dalam beberapa tahun terakhir ini.
Di dunia yang penuh dengan kemunafikan ini saya cukup sadar apa peran saya bagi dunia. Saya ada karena dunia ini ada, dan dunia ini ternyata luas. Cukup luas bagi anda semua untuk mengembangkan pribadi anda seluas apa yang anda mau...
Uuuhhh... Sekali lagi, ini hanya bentuk refleksi saya. Dan saya sebenarnya belum cukup yakin terhadap apa yang saya pikirkan. Mungkin saja pemikiran saya bisa berubah, bisa juga tidak. Tergantung bagaimana nanti saya menjalani hidup.
Namun ada satu hal yang saya percayai -> Diri saya sendiri, fuck the rest. Saya tidak perlu mendengar apa perkataan mereka terhadap saya, dan saya tidak merasa perlu untuk berkata kepada mereka bahwa mereka itu adalah sampah. Hahahahh... Dunia luas yang penuh dengan SAMPAH! Dan saya merasa bangga terhadap diri saya... YA!! Pada poin saya mengetik kata-kata ini saya akhirnya menemukan satu alasan bahwa saya tidak merasa perlu untuk feel hopeless... SAYA BANGGA PADA DIRI SAYA!!! Saya adalah orang yang hebat, dan saya berbeda dengan dunia...
Dunia ini hanya bisa memberikan sampah. You've been sterotyped every single day, dude! Don't you realize it? Hahahaha... Ada satu hal berharga yang bisa saya share-kan pada anda semua, teman-teman emo semua... 'Banggalah terhadap diri anda, dan anggap yang lain adalah sampah... dan anda punya alasan untuk tetap hidup...'
Whooaaa... I feel three times better now...
Yahh... Saya telah belajar banyak hal dalam beberapa minggu ini. Saya telah belajar untuk bagaimana untuk menghargai orang lain.. Saya belajar bagaimana untuk menjadi yang terbaik bagi diri saya tanpa harus mengikuti apa kata orang lain.. Saya juga telah belajar untuk menghargai diri saya sendiri.. Sangat mungkin, hal-hal kecil tersebut adalah 'jawaban' yang sangat ingin saya dapatkan dalam beberapa tahun terakhir ini.
Di dunia yang penuh dengan kemunafikan ini saya cukup sadar apa peran saya bagi dunia. Saya ada karena dunia ini ada, dan dunia ini ternyata luas. Cukup luas bagi anda semua untuk mengembangkan pribadi anda seluas apa yang anda mau...
Uuuhhh... Sekali lagi, ini hanya bentuk refleksi saya. Dan saya sebenarnya belum cukup yakin terhadap apa yang saya pikirkan. Mungkin saja pemikiran saya bisa berubah, bisa juga tidak. Tergantung bagaimana nanti saya menjalani hidup.
Namun ada satu hal yang saya percayai -> Diri saya sendiri, fuck the rest. Saya tidak perlu mendengar apa perkataan mereka terhadap saya, dan saya tidak merasa perlu untuk berkata kepada mereka bahwa mereka itu adalah sampah. Hahahahh... Dunia luas yang penuh dengan SAMPAH! Dan saya merasa bangga terhadap diri saya... YA!! Pada poin saya mengetik kata-kata ini saya akhirnya menemukan satu alasan bahwa saya tidak merasa perlu untuk feel hopeless... SAYA BANGGA PADA DIRI SAYA!!! Saya adalah orang yang hebat, dan saya berbeda dengan dunia...
Dunia ini hanya bisa memberikan sampah. You've been sterotyped every single day, dude! Don't you realize it? Hahahaha... Ada satu hal berharga yang bisa saya share-kan pada anda semua, teman-teman emo semua... 'Banggalah terhadap diri anda, dan anggap yang lain adalah sampah... dan anda punya alasan untuk tetap hidup...'
Whooaaa... I feel three times better now...
...Untitled dulu lah!
Let's remember our day when
we jumped out the bridge
We played on the water
and get naked together
Do you remember when
We sang out our song at 3 am
And nobody cares for us
we're just having fun
Now it's all been gone
you've been gone too far away
now I still smokin' crack
on our still memories
Now do you still remember when
You've waved your hands on me
Just to say goodbye
Pretended everything's okay
Nanana... Nananana...
Just to say goodbye...
Nanana... Nananana...
And everything's gonna be okay...
One more time...
Nanana... Nananana...
Just to say goodbye...
Nanana... Nananana...
And everything's gonna be okay...
Now it's all been gone
you've been gone too far away
now I still smokin' crack
on our still memories
Nanana... Nananana...
Just to say goodbye...
Nanana... Nananana...
And everything's gonna be okay...
I miss you, pal!
{Saya nulis lirik ini pas saya kangen sama temen2 saya waktu smp... Hahaha... Miss u, pal!!}
we jumped out the bridge
We played on the water
and get naked together
Do you remember when
We sang out our song at 3 am
And nobody cares for us
we're just having fun
Now it's all been gone
you've been gone too far away
now I still smokin' crack
on our still memories
Now do you still remember when
You've waved your hands on me
Just to say goodbye
Pretended everything's okay
Nanana... Nananana...
Just to say goodbye...
Nanana... Nananana...
And everything's gonna be okay...
One more time...
Nanana... Nananana...
Just to say goodbye...
Nanana... Nananana...
And everything's gonna be okay...
Now it's all been gone
you've been gone too far away
now I still smokin' crack
on our still memories
Nanana... Nananana...
Just to say goodbye...
Nanana... Nananana...
And everything's gonna be okay...
I miss you, pal!
{Saya nulis lirik ini pas saya kangen sama temen2 saya waktu smp... Hahaha... Miss u, pal!!}
A Short Poem For My Crush
Oh my God, she appeared again on my dream
I waved my hands and she gave me her cutest smile
And I came to her just to say hi
Looks like I fall in love
After a lil chat we decided to hang out
It's kinda nervous on my very first date
And I just fake a smile
Acted like a stupid loser
And when I woke up this morning
I realized it was just a dream
It's too good to be true
Cuz I'm just a loser guy
Then I drove my ride to school
Couldn't wait for the next met
I hope she appeared again
God, I'm so hopeless
I waved my hands and she gave me her cutest smile
And I came to her just to say hi
Looks like I fall in love
After a lil chat we decided to hang out
It's kinda nervous on my very first date
And I just fake a smile
Acted like a stupid loser
And when I woke up this morning
I realized it was just a dream
It's too good to be true
Cuz I'm just a loser guy
Then I drove my ride to school
Couldn't wait for the next met
I hope she appeared again
God, I'm so hopeless
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