It's Between Me & Myself

Yea.. yea.. yea.. I know, Linkin Park is such a poser to me... But they've made very kewl songs. At least for me. This is the one of their greatest hits:

Numb - Linkin Park
I'm tired being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting to me
Has fallen apart right in front of you
Every step that I take is another mistake to you

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Has Become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
All I want to do is
be more like me and be less like you
...

Yeaaahhh... The best part of that song is when Chaz sang -> "Every step that I take is another mistake to you" and "All I want to do is be more like me and be less like you...". Those parts really really touched me a lot. I'm so tired always pretending to be like them. In fact, I'm so sick of it. Why I can't be just like me and express my whole shit? Do I have to be part of of them? That's the biggest question that I wanna think for a while. Though I can't get the answer as fast as possible since I'm the dumbass. Haha. It's funny now. But then, it's sucks!

I remember someone told me that I have to be somebody else to go with the 'flow'... Uuuhh, dude, I'm not the one that you've expected. I'm not that kind of guy, you know. I'm still a small guy that have problem inside, remember? And that problem seems to hold me along.
So please, don't give me any more wise words. I just wanna take this by myself. Selfish? Maybe. But I don't want other people feel what I feel. It just too painful, although everybody feel the same. Maybe worse.

Don't take it too seriously, sis (can i call you that? :-)... You have to continue your life, so do I. Maybe my world is too different for others to understand. Yeah, and that's my world. But don't misunderstand, sis, I really2 appreciate your advice, but that doesn't seem to work on me. Maybe your word seems to be a good advice to me, and really2 lift me up. But, once again, I'm not the guy that can pretend to be nice to be survive, and go with the flow, but deep inside it hurts... It sucks man. I just want to be... Me... (but, what a shame, I have to deal with it...:-)

Afterall, sis, thanks for you attention. All of your support really2 help me out. Once again, thank you... (this is my 2nd time I say that word! Uuuhhh.. :-) My 'sister'... Haha...
Be well, peace.