God, are You there? It's me, Your son...

God...
I want to thank You for all of this desperate feelings
I want to thank You for sadness and madness that you gave it to me
And I also wanna thank you for this loneliness
Cuz it's make me feel alive...

God...
I know that you're listenin' to me
Though I can' t hear you
But I know that you're near me
And I know that you love me

God...
All I wanna ask you is
Is there any pain or suffering in the heaven?
Any blood or cry, maybe?
Or any of rejection that move around you?

God...
I know that's impossible
To let such things came around you
I know only laugh and joy in that place
There must be happiness in there

God...
If so, I want to go there by now
Lot of things happen around me
and it's sucks, God
Please let me go by You...

I want to suicide...

God...
I want to thank You for all of this desperate feelings
I want to thank You for sadness and madness that you gave it to me
And I also wanna thank you for this loneliness
Cuz it's make me feel alive...